Comme ci, comme ça
I think that I’ve already used that title before. Not sure. Don’t care. Don’t ask me why. The word just expresses a haunting mood of mine in a very… sautéed manner. Yesterday… someone mailed me a present. Four packs of Lipton Caramel Vanilla tea attached to a lovely note, a funny little wink, and a captivating story to tell. I keep looking at the packs… and I’m all speechless. I have changed for a better me; that I know… short time… short notice. Am I ready for this? Am I prepared? Why did I use the word ‘fear’? Isn’t fear as a word supposed to be accompanied by the actual feeling of being afraid? Why am I confident about this even though we’re clashing? I’m not a hypocrite, but I’m also not easy. I have my own little world developed in my head; my own little private party with ghouls and warlocks and angels and demons all floating around waiting for me to decide on what music to be played. I am not easy. Would you be willing to bear with me, with my doubts… with my assumptions… Would you be willing to dig into my dark mine? I can’t promise anything… I am my very own comme ci, comme ça, tauntlessly. Here’s another piece of the truth... I can’t speak French. I can only speak Arabic and English. I can say Je ne parle pas Français and Iuo non Capisco L’Italiano. Care to join my private party?
I’m not a big fan of the French language, but the truth is, I do find it appealing at times… and of all the words in the language… I find comme ci, comme ça to be my favorite phrase.
It says so much about everything.
How could I be such a ranter on my blog and yet… they manage to steal away my words, I wonder?
Thank you, love.
Why does my mind feel at ease? How did I manage to finally ignite the flames?
This is all new to me. Do forgive my silliness.
The truth is… I can’t decide. I’m a cross of them all.
With my tastes of music?
The truth is… I don’t know what you’d find…
Would you open that door, to join me on my own ride? My head has got its own highway, its own music…
Its very own wind of change.
I am a fan of catchy phrases that sound enchanting to the ears though.
Care to learn my own language… my language that I clearly don’t always understand myself?
Dude, I am glad you are happy, I am glad you are a better man, but FYI you are also becoming a weird man, I mean dude, this is so not you, probably in a good way, but, it is so not you, this is the end of an era...
And dude your posts are not depressing anymore, I mean the next thing I will walk into your blog and it is all pink and stuff... PLEASE DON'T DO THAT... NOT NOW, NOT EVER... :P
Posted by Unknown | 3/01/2008 08:00:00 PM
GBK, I don't mind the change friend. :)
I bet that even most of my readers wouldn't mind the change. :P
Pink? Naaah... I don't see that happening.
Maybe purple.
Posted by Яαgιи Яαvєи | 3/01/2008 08:04:00 PM
Well, don't talk about the readers dude, I mean you don't depress people and then tell them that life is all pinkish... You are just trying to confuse them when you act this way...
And purple.... Purple... PURPLE.... DUDE, I am so sorry, friendship is not just overrated... Friendship is over... LOL
Posted by Unknown | 3/01/2008 08:09:00 PM
No, friend. I'm not trying to confuse them. I'm trying to keep them entertained. Depression, Religion, Politics, Love..
who knows what I'll post about next.
And dude..
now that I see it hurts you..
PURPLE IT IS!!
Posted by Яαgιи Яαvєи | 3/01/2008 08:23:00 PM
Yeah, do that and you will wake the monster in me, there will be no end to the jokes and the wise ass comments.
And dude this is not entertainment, this is amnesia... I can't believe someone named Ragin Raven is talking about love... :P
Posted by Unknown | 3/01/2008 08:26:00 PM
Okay, seriously no purple, I swear I am gonna spread a rumor your room is painted pink if you do this :P
Posted by Unknown | 3/01/2008 08:28:00 PM
This chat thread is funny :)
Purple would very much suit you dear...
Allah yewafa2ak with anything you choose to venture.
Posted by Jade | 3/03/2008 05:32:00 AM
Thank you Jade.
I truly appreciate it. :)
GBK.. I think I'll paint my room pink just to spite you. :P
Posted by Яαgιи Яαvєи | 3/03/2008 07:19:00 AM
Well paint it pink... You might spite me, but well, you will also be the talk of the town.... LOL
Posted by Unknown | 3/03/2008 07:25:00 AM
I don't mind baby.
Since when have I cared what people think boy?
I am confident of my sexuality brother. Pink, purple, baby blue, a fucking rainbow tattooed on my shoulder...
doesn't matter. ;)
Posted by Яαgιи Яαvєи | 3/03/2008 07:29:00 AM
You shall care what people think, you shall care my friend, once the fingers point to you and your rainbow tattoo, and you hear the jokes you will so care... And Baby Blue, dude stop with colors, painting an awful picture in my head... :P
P.S.: I will be the source of all the jokes, just so you know... Hope that doesn't affect our friendship...
Posted by Unknown | 3/03/2008 07:43:00 AM
Oh GBK..
You are tempting me to complete the picture just to be able to hit you on the head with it.
Very, very tempting, my friend.
YOU... KNOW... ME.
Posted by Яαgιи Яαvєи | 3/03/2008 07:49:00 AM
I am glad you are happy too!!
Congrats...
You deserve the best and all the happiness of the world.
Good luck with it all...
I say we all change to pink and purple just to piss GBK off!!
;)
Posted by Nora | 3/04/2008 08:19:00 PM
Nora, you really like me, don't you :)
I mean you always aim at pissing me dude...
Posted by Unknown | 3/05/2008 06:29:00 AM
Umm, yeah... You have a point there....
I guess it is the influence of those 6 year olds on me!!!
Damn, I think I need some mature friends!
;)
Posted by Nora | 3/06/2008 07:14:00 PM
Did you just not come back with an argument... Nora I think you have just matured and without even having those friends you just talked about :)
Posted by Unknown | 3/06/2008 09:56:00 PM
Omigod!
I cannot think of an argument...
Damn it!!!
I am ruined!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:o(
Posted by Nora | 3/07/2008 02:01:00 PM
I am happy, I mean really happy...
*Victory Dance*
Posted by Unknown | 3/07/2008 02:55:00 PM
umm..
I think I liked the two of you better when you were both strangers.
GBK your dance suits my pink/purple picture..
Now strip so we can take the picture law sama7t.
Posted by Яαgιи Яαvєи | 3/07/2008 05:05:00 PM
umm... I think I like it this way...
And dude pink/purple is enough, asking me to strip totally makes my fears sound true...
Posted by Unknown | 3/07/2008 05:09:00 PM
I'm sorry i pulled you out of your closet on my blog page.
This is a moment to remember.
Years ahead, when you're gay and famous... this page will become a tourist attraction.
Not sure I can handle your gay parades though. I mean.. we're friends and all, but dude... I'm afraid I will have to bail on you then.
Sorry man. I really am.
Posted by Яαgιи Яαvєи | 3/07/2008 07:06:00 PM
I think I liked it more when there was no stripping and photographs....
Ok, I am lying.. This way is so much better!!!
;)
Posted by Nora | 3/07/2008 07:06:00 PM
In two mere post you moved from bloody red, to pink, to purple, to fruity rainbows - with a myriad of dubious colors in between- and finally in the post where I can't seem able to post a reply there's morose black..
Too many colors dude! Too many :P
Posted by Embee | 3/07/2008 07:32:00 PM
We have too much free time here????
You do realize that out of the previous 23 comments... 11 of them were from you, right?
;oP
Who is the one with too much free time?
Posted by Nora | 3/07/2008 07:54:00 PM
OUCH!!
Nora...
hats off!!
*applause*
Posted by Яαgιи Яαvєи | 3/07/2008 07:57:00 PM
Nora,
I have posted them over four or five days, you have way too much free time for one day :P
RR,
Best friend here, you don't applaud Nora dude, YOU JUST DON'T....
Embee,
Thank You, dude, you are good... He is probably schizophrenic....
Posted by Unknown | 3/07/2008 07:59:00 PM
Well... that means that you have had too much time for the past few days. You have too much time all the time...
And dude, don't talk to RR like that on his own blog! You're lucky he hasn't kicked your ass for that mistake!
Posted by Nora | 3/07/2008 10:00:00 PM
Nora,
So this is how you win an argument?? :P
Posted by Unknown | 3/07/2008 10:04:00 PM
Hmm, actually...
That was more like a feeble attempt at kissing ass. RR has some great world domination plans.. and I want to be on the safe side!!
I win arguments by stating the facts and just being so much better than you!!
;oP
Posted by Nora | 3/07/2008 10:23:00 PM
Oh baby, being better than me, a dream that you can keep trying to get to, and yet you will never have :P
Pink, Baby Blue, Purple, Freaking Rainbows, does RR really seem to you like someone whose plans for world domination would work? I mean what will you both do to dominate, paint it? :P
And Ass kissing is not stating facts sweetie and I am sure the illusion of being better than me, isn't either :P
Posted by Unknown | 3/07/2008 10:41:00 PM
If you knew anything about battles, you would know that you should never underestimate your opponent!
Yeah, there are many colors being mentioned.. but do I have to remind you that you are the one who started the discussion of the colors?
Posted by Nora | 3/08/2008 12:07:00 AM
I will just say it in the Raven's words which are more expressive than any other words:
"Ay Kalam"
Posted by Unknown | 3/08/2008 12:15:00 AM
what...what's wrong with purple? I just redesigned...dammit.
Posted by Anonymous | 3/17/2008 10:30:00 PM